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May 15, 2004: On Traveling

I like traveling alone. Not that I’m going to do it any time soon.

But I like getting on a bus or a train or a plane all by myself. Traveling, between my to and my from, I’m no one, I’m anyone. I’m anonymous. Having no home is liberating. All my critical stuff in a knapsack packed safely away. Some bare toiletries, perhaps a book, a few articles of clothing. I am nothing more or less than what I’m wearing and I can be anybody I want.

I could be an insurance salesman, an appraiser, a bingo enthusiast, an international scrabble competitor, somebody’s dad. And, nomadic, roaming through space, I could meet anybody. Stuff is a crutch. A home is sometimes a cave where scared animals cower and hide. A mortgage is a commitment to a single space.

The life of a nomad. Are there any nomads anymore?

I used to be an urban nomad. And I played my stoplight game. With no destination in mind, I would follow city streets and, at crossroads, take whichever stoplight was green. And, not often, it’s true, sometimes when I passed the train station and had nothing else to do, I would buy a ticket to wherever I could afford. But I was a chicken, too, - a slave to my house and my life -, I would of course buy a return ticket.

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No doubt I’m a hermit too. I’m a hermit nostalgic for his nomadic days which is worse. I want to avoid feeling bad for this hiding. Even birds stop their flying long enough to nest. Yes. That’s it. I’m not hiding. I’m nesting.

No metaphor: my keys are always in the other pocket. Always. Thanks for the comments.

Posted by: ss at May 18, 2004 7:37 PM

I’m no nomad, how could I possibly be? I’m a hermit. I need my cave, more than anything else. I need it’s deepest corners where I can hide and be alone with all the fears, bad moods, crazyness. Alone, so noone gets hurt accidentally. So noone asks and tries to help. It might be the cage syndrome, the cage I know and where nothing surprises me. But I do believe I still have the keys. In my pocket… wait, maybe in the other one…

Posted by: hmmm at May 18, 2004 2:00 PM

nice exposure — I can never get my whites to be this soft! My eggs would be totally blown out… nice nice image…

Posted by: bob at May 15, 2004 1:27 PM